Well it finally happened me and The Hearse are finally reunited after a month apart. I must say after paying the mechanics and taking control of her again it was a very strange experience getting used to her feel. Whereas the Suzuki is light and nimble getting the Mondeo onto the road felt like steering my living room. I was immediately conscious that I was guiding 2 tons of metal on the road. Turning required minutes of planning and trying to estimate the back of the car which is about 18 feet long almost requires a navigator. The low driving position also took a while to get used to. It is funny how quickly one can get used to a different vehicle. It is nice having the comfortable suspension and automatic shift though so I am getting used to her again. I was still sick today, sicker if anything, but I had agreed to produce the news today for Vashtee and figured I would just sit there fevered until the planned news meeting at 8pm. The news was almost done and I dashed off in the Suzuki ( wasn’t comfortable with the Mondeo yet) to pick up Grommit and drop him to the Cascadia Hotel since he had no other way of getting there. Got back in time to see Giselle had her newscast and take more pills as my fever was ramping up again. Somewhere in there Tony decided that there was no point having a news meeting if Vash wasn’t there and we had two cameramen out so we postponed it till next week. Typical of us. That meant I could return the Toco keys to Robin and pick up Grommit at the hotel to drop him to catch his taxi as the hotel is only a couple of minutes from my place. Sitting here now wondering what will happen if I let the fever keep building..will I spontaneously combust? Perhaps I will melt into my chaise? I suppose it is best not to explore some possibilities as brain damage seems a more likely outcome. I find fevers fascinating as I invariably think back to other fevers i have had in my life. There is something disturbing yet oddly fascinating about the jangly nerves and the galvanic skin response that fevers induce. I find there is an almost sexual quality to the feeling..not quite …but there is a definite nexus. Sad to see that actor Heath Ledger apparently committed suicide today at the age of 28. Even in the most apparently charmed of lives there may be demons lurking.
Woke up with clear signs of the flu which was not the best start to my day. I had an interview with Rosemary Hezekiah of Trinidadtunes.com but mercifully that was at 3pm so i was able to take my time getting ready. God I hate makeup. It went well as Roses and I are old acquaintances so it was a very easy interview and I think they are on to a good thing doing a download service for local music. Pity that most people will still chose to just download for free thus depriving local artists of money they desperately need.I am now sitting staring at this screen and trying to not let the fever make me write some sort of Coleridge tome. I should have interesting dreams tonight as I always do when I am feverish. I am still in my strange mental place but I am trying to get out of it by analyzing my life. As far as I can tell my work life is great so it is my personal life that needs attention. I suppose being without my own car for a month has had a psychological effect on me…but thank god I work for a company that lets me use its car for so long with no argument.I suspect i will come out of this place soon. It is a new year and some interesting people have come into my life so it may make a difference. Maybe a great difference..I will keep my fingers crossed. I will constantly remind myself that i am a really good and decent person and deserve a good life.