What a ride it has been these last few weeks. I work for a very small TV company so when I returned from Canada another manager decided she had to go on vacation which resulted in me working for 39 days non-stop. That sucks so much I can’t describe and add writing for Fodor’s when I got home at night and you see what a hell my life has been. On the wonderfully happy side, I also sent my first article to Gaylaxy Magazine ( India) and my first article on ACTUP.org both of which made me incredibly proud.
On Thursday my 39 days of working producing the news,interviews and my call-in show came to an end so yesterday the ‘gay agenda’ dictated that I had to clean. Thankfully my wonderful Ex came and helped enormously – with the blessing of his current.
This evening I was wandering on the internet and discovered an article by an amazing young gay person called Troy Roness and I noticed that Randy R Potts also posted him on Facebook. To make a long story short the article is the grittiest article I have ever read – the title alone says it all : “It’s time: Yes, I’m gay, and I’m unapologetic”
Staring at myself in a mirror, I internalized my shame, guilt, and insecurities. I believed my appearance defined my existence. The perfect grades, the perfect body, and appearing flawless would somehow make me complete. I’ve learned, though, that we aren’t mean to be “perfect”; we’re meant to be whole.